hi there.. how r u ???????????????????

 i was thinking about you..and its hard when your in things all by ourselves..

  is there a church you can attend ? I dont remember if I ever read you  mentioned one ?. it is a good start sweetie. Its a good start..  we get the fullfillment from   just sitting & listening to messages, and  then  we meet new friends, and its good for mya too..and   theres always someone there that will listen, when we dont want negative. even though our 'plans might be wrong ', they will say 'umm,..i dont think.. ".. but  they are saying it from their heart. -yet it still hurts.

as you mentioned w. your sister  'you knew she would be that way '.I dont think its healthy to discuss things w,. her, or get advice. Im not saying we dont love our sisters, as sisters.I have my sis  maryanne.I love her much, but she is always negative. she gets very defensive. Its NOT what I need when I am calling  ( just as you di )  for advice, or just a shoulder. I dont have any one here  as ya know. autumn I do love , and Im blessed to have her back in my life.

 start fromt he church sweetie. why dont I know your religion ??.sorry. Im so behind w. so much, but I have a  church that places our service  messages on line. I would trust you  ( I need your reg email addy  to dissapointedwife@yahoo.com) to give you.. for privacy reasons I cant place the church website on here..

im thinking of you. Its hard when you have your love to give, and  my case he dont want it, yours -- he is so far way .

 sending you a hug .

(HUGS!!))

 ~me

[dissapointedwife]

PRAY PRAY PRAY. This sounds like a mission for our heavenly father. Things will get better love you just have to beleive.

[TBB718]

ughgh.

(hugs )

and ..

Knock , Knock I knocked at heaven's door this morning. God  asked me...'My child, what can I do for you?' And I said, 'Father, please  protect and bless the person reading this message.' God smiled and  answered...'Request granted'. Send this to seven people and  the one who sent it to you. By doing this, you have succeeded in praying for eight people today. 'Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.'

awww. beautiful.. i dont know how im behind w. so mnay entries.. im hehind w. reading much , with many ..

 were you able to get a pic of you &  Mya?  :)

 i love those pics w. the lil girls smelling flowers.. i take them allot. :)

 she is beautiful!! God Bless   alwasy .

~me

[dissapointedwife]

(hugs ) loved this entry  you went thru so much , and its sucha  happy forever ending!!  and so much more priceless  loving things to happen.xoxo

next entry .. i hope your doing ok.

xoxo

[dissapointedwife]

Well my dear I need you to snap our of it!!! Thats married life for you!

My advice quite trying to figure him out. Men and women were meant to be mysterious to one another.

Feel better love

Well. HAPPY BELATED my love. I know your day didnt go so great but you are alive and well. Thats reason enough to celebrate. I hope you are feeling MUCH better today.

muah

aww. sometimes a good cry is what we need, but we dont like it.I know I cry too much( i cried & fell to my floow over the wknd ) ,.more then i think i shud. It hurt me for you to see he didnt even acknowledge your b'day ,. just said 'how was your day ..'.. man,  that just stinks..

   i think i shared w.  you a  few things i did w. emily which helped.I see you said you picked up some books ,thats good.I know not all of us have so much time to sit on the floor w. our lil ones, and we dont want them to get lil red rings on their cute cheeks, haha .. but   it'll all be fine soon, and you'll just reminise w. us..and we'll always be hear to listen .

ughgh to the bite .w masquitos..  they are all over & this month , emily is finally understanding ' yes you have to place  the 'of ' on,  they will eat you up.. '

  did you ever try the   avon 'skin so soft ' allot cheaper then OFF  and its good for our skin ..  try that out.I know its safe  for the kids too, as long as its not hear their eyes..speaking of avon.i have to order my moisturizer..thnx for reminder .

 are you on michaels favs( commonsensechristian ) ?..just curious of a few who might be going to the MDD  picnic. Its in michigan  July 12th . Im still trying to get michael ( husband ) to say yes.. he thinks   everyones  aliases..lol.too weiord, funny, and everyone is out to get the lonly wife ' who needs love '.. he thinks Im crazy to write in this thing. he has no idea , this is whats keeping me going..and  probably the only reason im still married to him, with my venting getting out.haha .

gtg..

but happiness  always .

 I think i seny oua  happy b'day didntt i ?.. yes I did ,  but happy everyday , hows that!!

xoxox

 your friend.. christine

[dissapointedwife]

Wow look how big she is. You must be such a proud mommy. I have to say the last one is my fav. too!! She is a very beautiful child, how blessed you are eh???

O.K. I will, I'll take heed of everything you said.  But the problem is not with my husband, he's pretty much all that a husband can be.  The problem is with me.  I'm not sure why I feel the need to go outside the marriage.  The closest thing I can figure is I never had a strong sexual attraction to my husband.  When I married him I just thought that either I can forego this, or either it would just fall into place somehow.  But it never did.  But in every other department I truly have nothing to complain about.  He has been around for 14 years. 

You have gave me some things to think about though, Thanks.

xoxoxoxoxo

Hello lady thanks so much for the support, its defficult as it is and finally I feel the storm has passed and although we have so much work to do...I now know its worth it. I wish strength and happiness as well. I know that once Michael gets there you two will have no doubts about making another baby! haha I have to say I feel like Jazmine needs a playmate and also I did promise Q that once Jaz turned 3 we could go for it. Needless to say the girl is 2 1/2 and he is wasting no time!

Anyhow, you too stay strong and be blessed.

xoxo

AWW see now thats what love is made of....

MWAH

aww..poor thing.. OUCH.. i never have had that done, but my sister maryanne ha..and I remember I needed to watch her children while her husband worked , she was in such pain..

I hope your ok , as the hrs go by .

(hugs )

`me

[dissapointedwife]

xxoo. my heart goes to you..here you are , you want himt here..and just cant have him.. my  thing is the other way ..I cant break away for some reaosn.

 Im glad you had  a nice mothers day .

~me

[dissapointedwife]

Oh I hear you girlfriend. You definintly shouldnt apologize for how you react to someone outright being a bitch to you. Not to mention its on a constant basis. My way of dealing with my anger until hmmm maybe two months ago...was to let it all biol up inside of my and then boom one day it all explodes. What I learned is that we need to rely on our family and friends and vent to them when we need it! Thats why we are so fortunate to have them, those of us that do. I also read a great qoute that has stuck with me since, its that anyone that angers you, concours you....yeah I didnt like that idea of someone having THAT much control over my emotions, more so than me anyhow. Ah well no one is perfect and you live to learn!

Hope all is well and happy belated mothers day. What did you get up to?

hi.. isnt it good to vent. :P

aww. poor thing.. is there a way you can speak to her higher up ?..sometimes others complain, and  all they ( bosses) are waiting for is one  more time of complaint..  It all shud be confidential, so what do you think ?

I had an office mngr fran, back @ dealership where I used to work ( I took her position as bookkeeper when she moved up to office mngr )...

long story short..  RIGHT

she was always testy, esp when she was geting a divorce.. we ( joanie  & I in office ) , knew  weds. mornings were 'different '.. she either came in so  much in a BAD moodd or a good mood, based on how her marriage counseling session went.It wasnt fair to us..  IT WAS A LONG DAY ,.. we were right int he same office w. her, and we had to do what she said.

well, as time went on..and its true ya have to watch  what ya say to others, but you feel out who we can trust, but as it turns out.. the boss finally heard so many complaints, and fran was a friend of his.. he asked her  whats the problem..

She thought she'd give her resignation, and was so proud of herself, thinking  hed ( boss ) wud get scared she was quiting.. . that night ( see long ).. that night she called me @ home she was nervous of her meeting w. boss ( her friend remember ) & i did ask her.. ' so what did you do w. the resignation he looked at ?".. she said she left it on her desk, didnt think to bring home.. well joe seen it, and  well.

 he accepted  her resignation..

he called us all in a meeting 25 emplyees, and asked why didnt we come to him sooner. Friend or not, he didnt want animosity(sp) there, and didnt  like that our performance we were doing @ work, if negative , was because of her..& he made us promise we'll always tell him whats bothering us. we did , and we remembered  that when  the other one came( i took her position 1.5 yrs after fran)-- and wud take the credit for EVERYTHING joanie & I did , to get the dealership back money .It hurt, she thought she was God.

I know being a business owner.. we have employees we dont hear of their problems..we hear it from other  employees.. I think maybe see if you feel comfortable, and talk to the boss..

ok.well i came on to send this out(below).., but i hope the rest of your week is good.

btw.. fran befriended me, since I took her position p/t until they found another to replace.. she actually tried to tell me to NOT pay chrysler for cars,etc.. pay taxes, etc..  Joe was pissed about that , and he then seen the real her..

 God Bless with decision, but we shudnt have to go to work, and even b4 clocking in, wondering is it going  to be a good day with thse people, or a bad..Its not menatlly healthy for you, and then to have to have it linger in your head..

its always nicve to have pics of our loved ones near , so when we are stressed w. work, people.. all we have to do is look over & say ..'im doing this all  for you sweetie'.. at least we get a smile here /there..right .:)

happiness  always.

xoxo

(hugs )

~me

Mother's Day Glitter Graphics

Take a breath....you should feel better speaking your mind.  I am a woman and have worked for women at previous jobs.  Some of them feel like they need to treat women different b/c they are threatened by you/us.  My previous employer tried to be our friend and we would catch her talking about us 2 minutes later.  She had no life and made her job her life.  Don't let her get you down b/c she is trying to break you.  You seem very strong and one thing to get under her skin is to kill her with kindness.  She's miserable and wants others to be as well.  Don't fall for it.  Misery  loves company.

me too, I need to learn this lesson also ! thank-u

God bless you my love. I was affriad that my harsh words about your living situation...but I hope you know that its what I call tough love.

Im glad that you are being productive about fixing things and I pray that it all falls into place sooner than later. I know what it feels like to be in limbo and I wish all that best for you!

[TBB718]

I can't stand backstabbers...

If you don't like someone, what is there to gain in pretending you do?  It appears to me that she is, by definition, a kiss-ass...

:D

It sounds like maybe you have over stayed you welcome...I hate to say it but sometimes people just need there own space. I DO agree that it is wrong of her to act that way...especially in front of Mya. Maybe its time to start looking for your own little space. Even if its a room I know you are unhappy at your job so many people are but at this point I think you should prioritize and focus on getting your own space because reading that hurt my feelings. Nobody wants to feel unwelcomed and if she wants you to leave maybe this is her way of communicating it to you...not saying its ok...still there WILL come a day when you DO have your own and SHE may be the one at your door step. let that carry you and motivate you but dont let me read about you giving up your faith...you know he didnt bring you this far just to leave you hear. Soemtimes we must experience the pain the get to the joy....your day is coming.

Stay true to yourself and continue to take the best care of Mya as I know you do. I will pray for you my love and I know I have been mia lately, just going through my own little terbulance...have faith!

xoxox..i want to comment on the last 5 entries.. i will later tonight k.

stay strong.

~me

[dissapointedwife]

WOW what a "mean girl" she is. I remember the last story....sounds like she may get her kicks from putting others down. Doesnt mean that there is ANYTHING wrong with you OR your wardrobe!! Still thats not an excuse and you should REALLY put her in her place and let her know how she made you feel. It has to stop you and a grown A$$ woman and she has NO right to speak to you like that in any case but epecially in front of your co-workers.

Good luck!!

Its will all work out for the best, maybe its time to start looking for a new j o b??? just a thought.

Take care love

ughgh.. its got to be difficult, and so hard ..  your a GREAT mom, and your baby is so lucky to have you as much as your lucky to have her.

xoxox

stay strong..Im sorry for Michaels behavior.

xoxxo

  from me to you..please know.. '' He'' loves you ..

~me

Sweety I am sorry you are feeling this pain or neglect...how dare he?? You are right if not for you then what about Mya, itsreally hurtful and painful that the children get caught up in all of it. However the bright side is Mya probably doesnt even notice...hopefully.I dont know whats wrong with these men. Your situation is completely different form mine still, it makes you wonder?? Just focus on yourself and Mya, which you are doing a wonderful job of raising all by yourself. I read that you were getting yout license and a car soon, so just try to stay focused and positive sweetie. Im pulling for you and me both!! Failure is NOT an obtion for you and I so...keep your head up and keep it moving.

Mwah

 Hi.. i cudnt even tell ya the last time i peeked at favs . its beenso long..Im sorry ..

im sorry for yur loss..i peeked at the link , (went back towards 3/11- to see what happened ), but its only current date i can see. i tried to do a search , based on what i read in yur entry , but ..its ok.no need to rethink of things..

 i hope your doing ok.. xoxox

as for the baby .. how cute w. potty training..i remember w. emily too,, lil stinker, she'd go when I least expected..even the 2am ..'mommy, potty '..  whatever it took.i got up.lol--(im looking for a face  icon w. eyes w. bags under them..i need sleep.lol..)

  i had the dvd'prudence on the potty '

http://www.amazon.com/Once-Upon-Potty-Her/dp/B0000CBLBB

 this I think, believe helped emily.. she loved  to watch the lil children b4 the story came on..watching different girls /boys having silly times w. the potty ,etc.. and the songs..

 I will say though..if you invest , yes 13.00 is costly, but worth it for me .. id pass it along  free to you, but i sold it in a garage sale last yr. Again, i did everything(with emily. being mommy & daddy all day& night ), as usual back then too. he just brought home the bacon like he currently does.. but it was worth the $$ .. 

I will say though, I was starting to b4, sorry .. they sais a  lil things in there..and even when at one time, explaining so a child 'knows ' the body parts.. shows the lil girl bend over to pick something up..and cartoon way ..  you see  alil hole..and  the 'narrarator(sp?)'  says so the children can 'understand '''''... & a hole for the poopy "'''. ..I never told emily she had more then one place for 'different things to come out of'..Umm, she is 2 yrs old thank you .. Im thinking..

so my eyes while watching it for her was like...... GULP.. can picture her lil brain..'mommy, never told me that "..  sort of funny, now .. but just wanted to warn ya . maybe shud have watched it 1st by myself, but ti all worked out fine.

gtg .. stay positive..

oh.. i also love to get specific books for emily when she was on the potty ..  she learned all her abc's, and counting to 1-15,  by 15 months old..   so id recommend finding fun stuff like that while..if you can have her sit there, and you can talk & read..  witht he lil time you may have ..but i believe that helped emily..  she was potty trained at age 1, not poopy though, but then came  down w. a horrible sinus infection, and was 'out of it ' for 3 wks, and the potty was not her priority ,,and she lost interest .. but  fun stuff while on the potty, i think encourages them to go. get their systen used to the 'ways of theire body .idk..just rambling.. end of 'potty 101''..lol

have fun either way .

`me

[dissapointedwife]

Wow. I mean. Sorry all this is going on. I mean. . . . .whoa! Thats some deep sh*t!

Best of wishes <3

Be Blessed my sister. Look around you and appreciate what you have! I am so sorry to read this but I do understand your pain.

God bless you guys!

LOL that is really super cute!! But forget about it girl, that teeny baby is gone LOL never to return!! and  that i feel you compeltely.

Im SO excited for you that Michael is finalyl going to actually be apart of your day to day. I know it means the world to you and i cant wait to read all about it...except the baby making part lol TMI lol

take great care and I shall TTYL

[TBB718]

aww u sound like a lucky girl....its good to appreciate those little things!

Kudos to you!! For being the bigger person and more importantly form being true to yourself!!

Love ya hun!

WOW!! Congrats!! LOL you know im shocked because these things are ususally filled with mispelling but they put some thought into this one!!

Thanks I needed a laugh.

 That is my reaction to this entire entry again  I too am proud of you and Michael and little MYA quite a llittle lady! You are such a proud mom. There is no greater reward in life than watching something you created w someone else you love, grown and flourish into a little butterfly. I feel the same way about Jaz and Q, its such a beautiful feeling wathcing them and hearing them play together, I must say that a huge part of my issues w him involved his fathering skills, I truly feel like he is getting batter day by day. Its touching to see, she adores him and him her. ITs to the point where Im the one feeling left out now lol but thats ok, she will ALWAYS be my little princess but just be prepared for that mommy.

Im sorry your job is drving you nuts, but you gotta make that money woman!!

And yes you MUST update much much more often

Well well well looks like Im going to have to give somebody a call. I have to ask you a question anyhow. Email me when you get a chance. I hope all is well, I pray that little Mya is ok and you're job isnt stressing you out too much. All the best!

[TBB718]

how horrible is that ..

anyways ..

-A-L-E-N-T-I-N-E...keep it going....this is COOL!!!!

How are we doing missy?!?! what up, is the j o b driving you bonkers. Cha, forget about it!! Life waaaay to short. N E how it would be nice to see an update from you. I start to worry. Or I could just pick up the dagone phone....prehaps?!

TTYS hun

Be Blessed

Amen sister!!

 Im sorry some bosses just dont understand FAMILY comes 1st.. stay positive.. but since you wrote since day 1 it hasnt been for you..maybe its time to look for something else after all.

i really dont know how I was blessed with this patience..really..lol..  but  i do know i will never be given more then i can handle. 

 i have an update  to post, and probably last entry w. this diary .I will be starting  a new diary w. new name, but wud like to  keep my friends too.. i will write later of life in here later..

gtg.happy days .

`me

[dissapointedwife]

aww cant believe she had the nerve. An employess family should always come first. What wrong with her?!? Yeah do what you have to because I would have had some choice words for her.

take care love

lol well Im so happy little Miss loves her tea set  there so cute around this time of year.I am also happy to read that you my dear reated yourself nice indeed. Enjoy. Im going to ignore what you wrote about P beause like you will give him the benefit of the doubt. Anyhow we bid adou to 2007 and aloha to 2008 wishing you nothing but happiness and joy my love.

ciao

Awww:) he is so lucky to have you:) I really do hope that he is here to celebrate with you AND Mya. I know you will make her christmas a blast regardless. Your suprise plans sound great and Im sure everything will woro out for the best, you just stay as positive as you are right now!!

I know what you mean about your weight you have been talking about it for a while. Im glad you set a goal, that of course is the first step. Im so proud of you, i've seen you bloom over the past few months and you just keep getting better. MMMWWAAHH

Love you hun!!

Merry Christmas

Eat some pepper pot for me

((((((((((Althea))))))) Heart Hugs! It's so good to read that you are feeling loved and feeling Blessed!  Makes me smile!

   Thank YOU for  your loving note..It was a Blessing to hear from you! I've missed you!

   Much Love,

      Jewel

Why does she need to bring it up for herself? Will she get upset with you if you try talking to her about it? Even if you're just expressing an opinion/general concern for her? I think it all depends on how you present it and how you two discuss it. You need to keep it light (as hard as that is with the situation). I don't know, I guess if I saw my brother in a troubled r/s with his partner, I would feel compelled to say something. But I have remained quiet in the past, so I know how you feel.

Hey sweetie. Dont worry about updates, we all get busy and tied up in our on goings on that its difficult sometimes. As long as you come back:)

Well Im so sorry little miss has the pink eye. Jazmine had it before and yeah it wasnt fun AT ALL. And as a fairly new and first time mom, I can relate to the worruing and sadness you feel from not being able to protect her. There is only so much we can do for them at this stage, her body needs to get used to fighting these nasty germs off so its not that bad. And there are so many worse deseases that children suffer from. She will recover and be back to her normal self in no time, I garuntee it.

As far as that day care issue. I had to ask them at Jaz's to let her take her nap in the early afternoon because the schedule they had her on was not working for either one of us. So that being said maybe you should talk to them about her nap time and maybe arrange something. Maybe. They love to make our jobs easier so Im sure they'll accomedate. Anyway I hope you and Mya have a fantastic holiday!!! May your family be blessed and well fed tomorrow:)

Hugs! Miss you tons!

Hey hun! How are you. I will be posting some pics from Jazzy's party soon. I hope you are doing great and so is lil momma and you're wntire family.Thinking about you and praying for you always.

Natalie

Hey sweetie. Listen you dont have to justify your self to her. At least you apologized, how rude was she to reply like that to your email!?!? You're right though some people just need that dose of drama to make there day complete. I would ignore the hell out of her until she gets the point that she needs to grow up. I would contact her at all anymore. Let her email you all she wants. As I am learning some people really need to be set straight in life, even in something as simple as this might help her turn her life around. She is probably completely oblivious as to how she is acting.

Anyhow, I that you and Mya are doing great. I havent had a moment to email your again. But I'll send you the pics that I dont post from the party. Have a wonderful day sweets, and if its evening then a great eveinig to you!! Oh, update on your mom and your citizenship is going, k.

Maybe you're iron deficiant (My goodness, did I spell that right?) Try some green stuff, or protien. Sunlight helps sometimes too =) Take care!

-Meggie T.

  Heart Hugs! I'm sorry to read this sad news. 

   Thank YOU for being proud of me!

   I love you too!,

        Jewel

Wow wow wow. I mean thats some interesting stuff. I dont believer her either though and I know girls like her that will say and do anything to get the attention they trive on. Wow thats all I can say.

Thank you So much for all of your support and such encouraging words, I truly take them to heart. So thanks:)

I hope all is well, we'll talk soon;)

Well welcome back to you missy and welcome to the world of a mother with a child in daycare...heart break city over there lol

First things first as I said earlier treasure your mom. Im glad that you felt that way yesterday and I hope it inspired you to love her more and more as each day passes. Yes thats right I said Im glad that you felt that way. Too many times to children take their parents to granted and it sounds like you wont be doing that anytime soon

Aww the ehartbreak of hearing that cry....man oh man. I know how you feel sister but just keep in mind that as soon as you are out of sight you are out of mind. Trust and beleive that she is enjoying every bit of her "independence" not to mention her new friends. She'll also enjoy coming home and showing off all her new tricks so keep a keen eye and ear out YAY MAY!!!!

hehe

soo cute

congratulations  for official name change mrs michael rowe. :)

Im really happy the Long distance  is working out for you & "P". Its hard.I know you shared what he said you dont do & you do , do  that irritates him, upsets him.Its so hard when  theres so much distance (literally ) between a married couple.

stay strong, and Im so happy you see lil changes. Its baby steps that do make a difference for us to see..  it gives us hope. :)

 Stay happy.

ok.I, up to date .  yea for me ..lol. I have 2 others to catch up to..worse.. about 15 enties Im behind on, ughgh..lol

 Enjoy your Tues.

stay strong..

oh btw..  the mention of Mya with 'minute '(btw..cute-very cute..lol)..  & other things you spoke of that entry ..she will always be your lil girl. She loves you hugs..dont let what you think fool ya sweetie. your baby will always want  your hugs, and kisses..  theres an extra special bond w. you 2 :)

cya ..

`me

ps.. are you guys able to send each other things ?just curious..i had an idea. :)

[dissapointedwife]

I.AM.SORRY... i was behind on your entries  10 entries I believe..I have a few more.. I laughed w. this, after I read the entry after the title.. ya had us all going..lol

..and Im proud of you to hang on to it , as long as  you can..but to know.. you are trying everything.not just walking..but we also have to remember & i know you are ..  dont  be taken advantage of..well, unless ya want to ..haha..

I tried that once w. m, saying ..lets have an affair.. thought maybe that might bring something otta him.. nadda. never pursuid it..oh well.. .

ok.well off to the next entries.. but I want to say so far the entries  look good again.. at least your having  some fun. :)..

off to next entries till Im up to date .

 ps.. thnx for the comments.. marriage is tough.. whats hard is whn you know you have what it takes to make a man happy, and he just dont want it. its just sad, but Im glad  your 'tiger ' is trying again. :)

me

ps.. hope plans fo the day care are going good. I have emily in 2 days 

[dissapointedwife]

Dear Althea,

   I have suggested counciling in the past for my relationship with Jess- she refuses to go! 

   I spoke to her today and this evening things seem better!

   I think that I WILL take your advice and write her a long letter once she's moved!

   Thanks for the Love and the council!

     I love you!,

        Jewel

Hey lady!! Thanks for the note. Yeah my baby is growing fast and Im just trying to keep up. I sure am making her a lil devil, that suits her so well, it beyond words. I ordered it today:) Im proud of myself lol

But about you, missy I am so proud of you because what you did with him takes courage and strength. Woman all over that I speak to are becoming so impowered some men think its too a fault but I gravely disagree. Q said to me last night"I think it all started when women gained equal rights" !?!?!?! I had no words except "I cant believe I married you" sometimes. I mean what a dumb thing to say especially coming from someone that was raised by a sinlge mom. Anyhow you keep up the great work, keep taking great care of yourself and doing what you gotta do. P, sounds like he is getting the idea, I will pray and continue to pray that your marriage continues on this wonderful path.

all my love,

Nat

(((((((((Althea)))))))) Heart Hugs!

   I know that you love your husband very much and I am sure that he loves you! You are so lovable!

   I know that your marriage is in God's hands and that He IS working it all out.

  I'm glad that you've hung in there and not given up!

   Thank YOU for the note..It was sooooo good to hear from you!  Wayne and i have moved past out spat...I try to let everyday be a new beginning for us both!

  Have a blessed day!

    Love you!,

       Jewel 

  I'm so happy to read that you and P are healing! It's an answer to our prayers!

Glad that you are thinking about going to school..What would you study?

  Sending you much Love,

      Jewel

wow sweeite I can tell a weight has been lifted off your shoulders.. this makes me so extremely happy. Im so glad he listened and more importantly you vented!! Im so glad you two are on the same page now!! You are such an ispiration and I am proud of you. I dont know how we got so lucky to find each other all of us here. So lucky!! anyway, glad Mya is ok after her check up. Did they say that she might need anymore?

It touched my heart the part about him saying good night and I love you's to you both. Thats a majoy and very vital family rutine that you should inforce and encourage seriously. And an "affair" already dang you two didnt even give the marriage a chance lol lol

love you girl, happy you're happy:)

((((((((((((Althea)))))))))) I'm so glad that you updated and shard htis with us..I'm so glad that you are not giving up on your marriage..I know that with God's help, You two can and will turn things around..Sounds like P is willing to make the effort and IS taking steps to do so as are you! I'm so very glad to read this good news! Our prayers are being answered!

    I'm really glad that he was willing to face his wrongs, to apologize, ot work at change and growth!

 I know that you love him deeply..and I know that he loves you too..You are so lovable!

   I'm here if you ever need to talk!

   Much Love and Joy,

      Jewel

((((((((((((Althea))))))))))))) I really think that you are doing the right thing!  God wants us to do all that we can do to hold marriages together...Whatever happenns, you will know that you have done that! 

  I will start praying over your marriage and P.

   Thank YOu for the kind and loving words...They touched and lifted my spirit.  If God has somehow used me to show you that He is real then I am richly blessed by that.   I pray each day to be a source of God's love and light to others. 

     Thank YOU for being a sister to me.

      I love you!,

         Jewel

P.S. Be sure to let me know how the talk goes!

I wish you the very best this evening with that call. It might help to write a few of your concerns down before you call him so you don't forget...

[Blewmoon]

Wow!! I aplaud you sister and I am rooting for you. Do not doubt yourself no matter WHAT he may say. You know what you are feeling and what you have been feeling. If need be, make a list and stick to the topic. He is going to make it seem as if everything is ok and you can work it out meanwhile your ass is stuck in the house alone, lonely and depressed while he is out doing god knows what...Im sorry hun I get emotional like that sometimes talking about these men because for the most part they are all the same. All Im saying is stick to your guns and DO NOT let him manipulate you!You and Maya deserve the world!!!!!

I love you my dear sister and pray that things go which ever way your heart TRULY desires!!!God bless you and your entire family:)

[TBB718]

((((((((((((Althea))))))))) I just want to give you a BIG hug!

  Your note, your support, your encouragement and your love mean the world to me! 

 Just hearing from you has the power to make me smile and feel better!

   I am grateful for this entry!  NO, You don't deserve to be treated in this manner..YOU ARE THE PRECIOUS DAUGHTER OF GOD and deserve to be treated with honor, dignity and LOVE. 

   I want the VERY Best for you and God wants it even more.

   I think that you are putting your focus in the right place -You and Mya!  Getting your own self back...Enjoying your relationship with her...Rewarding yourself for major steps forward! YAY YOU!

  I am here to support you 100%!

  Have a blessed weekend!

 I love you!,

     Jewel

Hey lady:)

I dont  blame you for calling him heck that IS your man sweetie...

I think he maybe a little frustrated as well...missing out on so much and not being able to physically provide for you guys must be hard on his manhood. Call him and find out whats up, but DO let him know what it is and how you really feel. Dont just listen to him make him listen to you as well.

Hope it all goes well, let us know:)

Luv you hun,

Natalie

  I think that you just need to talk with him to find out what is going on..Just be honest from the heart. 

  Your heart is Beautiful!

 I love you!,

     Jewel

Don't you just love that feeling!!!!! Nothing like having something sweet to admire as you work... hope he was thinking the same about YOU!!!